Sunday, January 31, 2010

ketidakpercayadirian dan kemunafikan

Sayang sekali jika orang yang kalian kasihi sebagai teman tapi menganggap kalian nggak baik, apalagi dari sudut pandangnya yang sama sekali nggak umum, mungkin bisa dibilang sangat pribadi. Ada alasan aku ngomong kayak gini, karena masih aja ada orang AUTIS, maksudku, lihatlah mereka, menciptakan dunianya sendiri tanpa mau orang lain membicarakannya dan masuk ke dunianya. Pertanyaannya: KENAPA? WHY? HOW COULD IT BE?
Aku di sini sebagai pemilik blog pengen bercerita secara transparan sama kalian, bisa juga dibilang share or minta nasehat. Tapi aku di sini juga nggak mau dianggap memelas diri.
Dia seseorang yang sangat nggak mau disalahkan, katakan saja nggak mau dikalahkan.
She pretends to having many friends in surreal worlds than in real worlds.
Banyak orang dinilainya copycat her style, pengkhianat, backstabber, traitor or apalah itu. Yang paling membuatku tertawa, dia menjelek-jelekkan orang saat kejelekan itu dia lakukan.
"Hey, aku tidak suka orang mengcopy style orang lain! Lihat, dia memakai pita di rambut seperti model luar negeri ini." setelah itu aku melihatnya memakai pita itu di rambutnya sendiri
"Hey, aku tidak suka orang pamer dan sombong!" setelah itu dia menunjukkan semua barang yang baru saja dibelinya, itu pamer bukan ya?
"Hey, hari gini masih jaman ya ngata2in orang lewat status or wall?" setelah itu berentet-rentet dia mengkritik orang lewat hal-hal tersebut
"Hey, kalau kalian punya masalah denganku, jangan ngumbar kejelekan dan ngomong di belakang, berbicaralah tepat di depanku!" setelah itu dia mengkritik orang lain tanpa ada kontak apapun dengan orang itu.
Dia bekas perokok berat, kenapa dia harus setuju dengan perempuan perokok sedangkan setelah menyandu rokok dia menutupi bibirnya yang hitam itu dengan pemerah bibir?
tidak percaya dirikah dia?
Dia berkata ingin membalas dendam, dan tidak dilakukan.
Maaf ya aku tidak pernah sekalipun menutupi kejelekan yang sudah orang lain tau.
Pantaskah orang seperti dia dipertahankan lagi menjadi teman? Apalagi setalah bertengkar aku yang lebih dulu mengajak untuk baikan. Then aku dianggap betrayer karena sudah berteman dengan musuhnya. Hey girl, what are you thinking?? Kamu juga berteman dengan musuh dari musuhmu! Di sini aku juga ingin menjelaskan kenapa aku berteman dengan musuhnya.
Aku hanya ingin membeli barang dari onlineshopnya. Dan kalaupun dia bercerita tentang kamu, aku hanya mendengarkan. Dan menurutku kali ini kamu salah besar, berani sekali bercerita tentang musuhmu kepadaku tanpa tau apa yang sebenarnya terjadi.
Jangan berkata kamu belajar dewasa kalau umur dan tingkahlakumu bertolak belakang seperti ini. sigh*
Ternyata susah berteman dengan autis.
Ayo,berikan pendapat kalian!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

yeah! I found it, baby!!!


( click on draw to enlarge my masterpiece )


Many things would spread out to your brain when you focus on something else, and of course you often lost that brillian things because they're just unpredictable.. These draw show me that I ever catched a spreaded thing in my brain.. Drawed by order, and you have to know that those inspirations came over when I was sleeping. Hope you like it! :D

new look!

Yeah! Finally in my precious age, my mother permitted me to color my hair! And I, I mean my hairstylist chose redbrown color for my hair, of course with no charge, because it has been paid by my richest sister.. hahah!
But it wasn’t free at all, first I should wait her to smoothed her hair for 4 hours! Sigh*
Okay, back to the topic, this action is included as my alteration list on 2010.. and the new motto for this year is: NEW YEAR, NEW CHANGES!
Take a look for my hair,dude..





And the last is about my new outlook, it was my plan to change my appearance, as I said, taylor momsen inspired me! These are the new photograph of my new look..



okay, that's all, enjoy it! ;*

Monday, January 18, 2010

he reminds me..

Well, the time in january is keep running.. Reminds me about my relationship with my boyfriend.. Yes! It has been two years passed since he asked me whether I would be his girlfriend... So sweet when he asked me with a kind of marriage proposal, yeah, I remember that.. then now i just found his old poem on my inbox! Hahah, okay! Here I show you..

1. 2 0 1 0

Tomorow will gonna pass the line
and the year will come to an end
Wishes that the new one would run fine
and im gonna celebrate my day at nine

Baby i really miss u there
a kilometers to go from here
but february i promise we will share
hundreds smile and lough together

*Luv u my vampire girl


2. When i had made mgic i usd to smiling, aprciating wht ive dne n hpe pples lve it. Thts the true hppnes 4 me, whn ur work worthy to others...


3. Whn shes smle,i dnno smhw, she cld brghtn my glm lfe & tgh shes yger thn m, i cld see hpe n myfture in her eyes! - lovelovediedie -


4. Sorry if im disturb u, but i jst wana tel Kep sleping wel (if ure stil so). Hpe u wld hv a nce day today. Love u mily. Mmuah:$.


5. Can u see,can u beL|eve,the worLd saw |s true,
| got sing,|got s|ng song,4 ur my Lady rose,
When u open ur heart n u sLeep n the thousand years,U my Lady..

yey, it's some of his poems... The others will be kept myself.. hehe.. Hope you like it,pals!

Monday, January 04, 2010

you have to watch it!

Greetings! I'm back from school.. There was so tiring.. Okay, here we go, I’d like to write about a new movie I liked so much.. The title is same with a nickelodeon animation movie, yeah, you know it! This movie was directed by James Cameron who made Titanic movie too…

He’s just the best director ever! James also write all of the stories, don’t you think it is amazing?! Ups, I forgot to mention its title, yup, the title is Avatar! Here I show you the trailer….



How’s that? I’m very impressed of his definitely hard work. He was totally perfect for making those two movies. Actually for the dramatic episode, made me wanted to cry! Huhuhu..
Well, Avatar set in the future where a protagonist, Jake Sully (Sam Worthington) as an American mariner that wounded while there was a war in earth. Then Jake elected to join Avatar program which that program make Jake possible to walk again. Later, Jake went to Pandora where almost landscape of this planet were only very large and thick forest that have distance around 4.3 radiance years from earth (unit of measurement in astronomy).

Pandora itself formed home of a great number of Na’vi that were primitive humanoid race and having more capability than normal human, they had 3 meter high and blue skin. These Na’vi lived harmonically in their world that still pure. But when human started to enter Pandora looking for mineral, Na’vi’s people preserved step over fight of tough Na’vi soldiers.

But unconsciously Jake has been recruited for taking a part of Pandora’s defense because human couldn’t breathe at Pandora until they created genetic human alike Na’vi then called as Avatar. After that Jake met with Na’vi girl who named Neytiri (Zoe Saldana). Along with the running of time, Jake decided to associate with Na’vi clan and begin fell in love with her. The consequence is, Jake was at a situation between earth’s soldiers side and Na’vi’s side who forced him to choose which side thorough a big war that would decide Pandora’s destiny.
So, I’ve watched it in 3D edition, will you watched it? It’s a must! ;D

GET READY FOR MY FAVE ICONS!

Finally now I turned to be a feminine girl, hahaha, actually not a really feminine girl, just to be a normal teenager who starts to be freak about fashion, and gossips…

Of course, I must dump much money for treating my appearance well, but it’s okay, because my parents permit me to use my credit card…
(don’t tell them about this, because they surely has been wanted me to be a feminine girl since I was a child, then unexpectedly I became a boyish, hehehe, sorry dad, mom…

Anyway, I must show you about my rated icons who inspired me of wearing outfit daily, but remember, they only inspiring me, not for copied style!

The First Modest star is…. TAYLOR MOMSEN!

Yey! >.<





I know her from her performance at on of the series of Gossip Girls.. Then I looked out for her sites, actually I found it, it’s no doubt that she mixed her outfit well! I really like it, guys…

Look for her cute outfits, they’re really inspiring! They can be used for daily appearance, simple but modest, eye catching, and gorgeous!

Oh,yeah… Do you see her mini studded purse? I saw a kind of it when I was shopping at Ambassador’s Mall, Jakarta. I almost bought that rather expensive bag, but suddenly my parents warned me that I had been spend lot of my money there.. Huhu, poor me.. T_T then I didn’t mind it, I could buy it someday at Semarang, right? ;)




The Second is…. AGYNESS DEYN!!




Her confidence teaches me how to face many people with my new wearing outfit’s way..

Although Agyness Deyn is not wearing fine clothes, I mean her surprising outfits,

she looks better that way.. She doesn’t care about what people said of her way of controlling her appearance! But don’t you think that Deyn had been famous at model’s role because of her naturally habits? Hope you like it!

Fuhhh, that was about my favorite inspiring people.. How about you?

After this post maybe I would discuss about my holiday after my final semester exams, but now I should continue my extension class for 4 days at school, of course preparing my final school exams at March.. Don’t worry, my next post will not be a boring shit…

Wish you enjoy it..

Any way, I’d like to say MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Get ready for a change at 2010!

orang sombong?

menurutmu orang sombong tuh kayak gmana sih?mukanya,sifatnya,gayanya,uh?
well,ada sedikit pengalaman yang membuatku jadi sedikit emosi melihat orang sombong...and perlu diingat kalo itu adalah mantan temen aku sendiri,sedihnya!
sebut aja si "L",well itu emang huruf awal namanya,buat aku sih sebodo aja.dia uda berani jelek2in aku dihadapan mamanya.
Berawal dari masalah kesetiakawanan untuk patungan membelikan kado ulangtaunnya,mungkin gak terlalu berharga,tapi kalo dipikir2,worth it gak sih kalo udah beli kado mahal2 tapi traktirannya cuma attack KFC di umur 17 yang sangat2 gak berharga??apalagi ditambah dengan honor SPGnya yang waktu itu kerja bareng sama aku,duit dia gak mungkin cuma untuk dibelikan tiket nonton konser.
yah,akhirnya kami sebagai temannya memaklumi karena dia emang berencana menonton konser band luar negeri idamannya.oke,masalah selesai.
tapi beberapa waktu kemudian ternyata band luar negeri idamannya gak jadi manggung dan temanku yang bernama "M" berulangtaun dan dengan seenaknya dia nggak ikut patungan,mengenaskan!
apa sih yang dia pikirin?kita temennya apa bukan?so,aku yang mulai gak terima dengan kelakuan dia langsung marah.akhirnya dia ngasih tau kita alasan dia gak ikut patungan n treated us not so well.ya mamanya sakit parah,duit L sampe dipinjem buat pengobatan.HAH?!oh,Lord,apa yang aku lakuin?aku jadi serba salah,sempet minta maaf juga..
tepat setelah itu kita liburan kenaikan kelas,wow,seneng banget kan ya?pergi kesanasini,ngabisin duit jajan,sangu extra..but,something was happened.
L ternyata juga liburan ke jkt!helllooooo?liburan?ke jkt??!!berbagai pertanyaan muncul di pikiranku,what did that mean?dia udah bikin aku minta maaf dengan bodohnya,dan setelah itu dia liburan ninggalin mamanya yang lagi sakit?!!WHAT KINDA PERSON??!!!koar2 di status fb kalo seharian dia goes mall to mall,makan di kafe ini itu.oke,aku emosi berat!
aku marah2 sama dia lewat message di facebook,but you know what,mamanya baca messageku(gak tau disuruh baca sama anaknya or dia kebetulan liat)..manaya telpon and marah2,katanya si L gak bisa ngikutin gaya hidup aku n temen2 yang laen,WTF,maksudnya apaan coba?!the...akhirnya aku nglabrak dia(sebenernya aku gak bermaksud,tapi dia uda keburu koar2 kalo aku tuh loser n mo nglabrak dia,tadinya aku cuma mo ngomong baik2,tapi udah emosi lagi,haha)
pengen banget rasanya bilang sama dia:"HEY,AKU LIBURAN BERKALI2 KELUAR PULAU JAWA,PUNYA MOBIL PRIBADI,PUNYA KERJAAN TANPA NGEREPOTIN ORANG TUA,MAU KULIAH DI LUAR NEGERI,KAWAT GIGI MAHAL WAKTU TK,NYANYIKU LEBIH BAGUS BANGET2 DARIPADA KAMU,ORANG YANG SLALU KAMU COPYCAT GAYANYA,LEBIH PINTER,LEBIH CANTIK,GAK SOK SUCI,GAK TUKANG NGADU SAMA MAMA,MANDIRI,AND YOU ARE PRICELESS!!!"
huh dasar kingkong gak tau diri...

ck!

social care?hmmm a kind of things that means:helping poor people..

yeah,its what i'v wondered.but,i just thought that we not only be confused by their habits but also,wow,be played around by them.. sigh*

tired,sweated,moneyfull!i'v almost finished packing my second goods at home for them...then prepared for their lil competition..

u should know it,i got parentless kids place with my 6 friends..

but i cant explain it to you anymore!because i'v been stuck here by the children...huhuhuhu

more experience











kedua kalinya aku jadi SPG...hm,nyenengin banget!

tapi jangan salah sangka,aku ga seburuk itu yg dikira SPG rokok,otomotif,bla bla bla yg mnonjolkan bagian2 tubuhnya,big NO!aku cuma jadi SPG clothing distro di exhibition2 gt....capek sih,tapi aku jadi ndapetin kesenangan pribadi!banyak temen baru,lebih dikenal orang(kalo yg ini emang aku perlu banget buat nambah link biar aku jadi lebih banyak job MC,yes,i am a Master of Ceremony,too!),then yg trakhir...aku punya duit tambahan!!!lumayan lah bisa beli hi heels,sneakers,dress,baju,tas...kalo kaos mah udah pasti dapet!gratis dari brand sanasini karna aku uda kenal sama mreka..hahah...OTOMATEEESSSSS!!!foto kedua itu foto waktu aku jalan2 nemenin mreka muter2 disemarang,well,ke lawang sewu juga,dan sialnya ada temen aku yg kebetulan gak ada difoto,diliatin pnampakan!hahahahahaha...nice beat,guy...dia sampe gak bisa megang kamera diem...ck ck ck...btw,aku menunggu kdatangan kalian lagi loh disini!!!

wuhuuu!kuku menjijikkan


haha!

ini dy orang yg blom ditampakkan wajahnya..namanya Gilang,suka banget membicarakan hal2 gak penting...kayakny aku juga mulai gak penting nih?udah ngobrolin orang gak penting!hahaha...





dan setiap saat aku usil sama dia,foto diatas merupakan foto Gilang yang kukunya abis aku tempelin plastisin!kenapa oren?karena saya menyukainya!huahahahahahahahaha...akhirnya dengan paksaan yang kejam,aku bisa memotretnya..hihihi...;p

call it bebidoll!


yes,its name was bebidoll...

why do i say "it was"????
because it had been lost since a week ago... huhuhuhuh

it bought by mydarling,yes,cost 12,5 k...and...and...huwaaaaaaaaaa!!!!I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!!huhuhuhuhuhuhu

it only lived at my pond for 3days long!

soooo....should i mind that my bebidoll had been eaten by bigger animal,or had been fled of me??!!!

DAMN!

hillarious!

aku menemukan fotoku lagi megang concept magz yang baru prtama kali aku beli,abisnya aku penasaran sama concept magz punya mybabe yang berisikan tentang urbantoys....
ternyata gak cuma itu aja yang dibahas,tapi masih banyak yang lain, tipografi, animasi, piktograf, design ekshibisi, hospitality design, and bla bla bla.....

okay,setelah sekian lama aku langganan,ternyata aku merasa belum cocok untuk ngoleksi majalah kayak begituan,aku prefer ke babyboss,hehehe,walopun seproduksi tapi gak tau kenapa aku masih bisa memahami isinya...

hehehe,sorry concept,majalah kalian ternyata terlalu luas buat aku....well,sekarang langganan aku ada 2,babyboss and gogirl deh...hehehehe

okay,here we go...

the first thing that i wanna tell u why i make an account for blogging:

1. bcause i dont know whom i chat with

2. bcause im bored w this flat life,i always do the same things everyday(online facebook,go to school,take many course,take a bath,sleep,etc!!)

3. i thought a blog will very useful for my future,i wanna show it to my children someday :D

4. yeah,im bored to show people about faith,n of course im bored with many gossips of me..yes,here i wanna show ya about my honestly mind...

5. i want make a blog account!! :p

ENJOY MY BLOG, FELLA!!